I have a feeling.

I feel like an emotional train wreck.
I feel like a sideshow for others' amusement.
I feel all 'scary and damaged.'
I feel like a firefly that's run out of light.
I feel like a fire gone to ashes.
I feel forgettable.
I feel.

I have a feeling.

SERIOUSLY?
SERIOUSLY?!
SERIOUSLY?!?

Loving or hating.
All the blood in my veins.
Shifting accuracy, small and hat-ed.
Small and weakling.
Small and small.
This version of all truth.
Ever forgetable. Ever the one of many.
Exhaustive self
Can't be loved, can't be saved.
Still easily forgotten.
wear the crown of thoughts.
thoughts of emptiness
of loneliness.
Forty years yet.
Maybe not.
Maybe forgiveness has a way of setting free.
Labeling, condemning, fingers pointed at all.
at me.
hypersensitivity's the cost
and the price.
Indelibility.

Love is...

Love is an addiction.
Upon cessation an individual goes through a withdrawal syndrome which varies in intensity, duration, and symptoms from person to person.
Addictions are powerful motives in human life.
Dependencies claim action.
Love is powerful. Love is synaptic firings.
Addicts go to extremes to fulfill their Dependencies.
Love is classical conditioning - The other's face / their scent / their touch / their voice / even their taste - is all encoded and conditioned with positive mood states and positive affects.
Love withdrawal syndrome is likely informed by reverse conditioning.
Love can be a maladaptive pattern of learning.
Love is habituation.
Love is emotional.
Love is mood.
Love is in essence a drug.
Love is in large part unconscious.
Love is more than just a feeling.
Love is more than what one perceives.
Love is a chemical process within the brain.
Still, Love can be so much more.

Singing

We all sing along to the the tune of tomorrow until we forget just how it goes.

On War

War is a symptom - not a means or an end.

Really

Here we sit and think on tomorrow
Know we've lost our rapture in full, today
Pull the hope from our memoriums
and give a chance to those without.
Defy the world to write us off as idealistic wunder ones.
Even truth out, for the future - it's all real.
The here the now is all the world we'll know.
Real life has begin, so just jump in.
Just let go.