Rememory

Through it All

So we left our ponds behind to swim through the ocean
Alone and far from home we moved to our cabin
There we found some brand new friends (new friends worth making)
When we played our "ten fingers" standing on the beach

We took the time to care
We took the time to try

A year later and the story's changed (that's how it goes)
Gone were the days of rainy-days off (with games to be playing)
Some days were games, booze, and movie nights (with laughter to spare)
But others were sad with fists through signage (still in a box)

We took the time to fight
We took the time to cry

Enter the guys and the tension they cause (it was so hard)
One hated everyone, and only loved me (now hates even me)
One loved everyone, and hated just me (and they love him)
They all turned out to be liars (from beginning to end)

We took the time to like
We took the time to love

Yelled at me and broke my heart (now it's worth mending)
Stabbed my back and stole my friends (guess they weren't worth it)
You asked, so I gave time (more that you wasted)
Chose to trust but you lied again (I still forgive you)

And through it all I found my voice
The strength to stand when I'm defeated
A chance to grow and choose my path
And I forgive you.
In fact, I thank you.



Demise of a Fairy-tale

I breathe the words through the steam of my coffee
In the demise of our fairy-tale
Such an intimate thought dismissed in the air
Doubtlessly barely heard over the din of this place
The stereotypic voices (deep thoughts, to be sure)
And the tip-tap-typing of fingers on keys.
A swirl of lost hope
The poetry bound in that book left unread
Was destined to tear the pride from my veins
So I cling to the moments before (all i have left)
But then my hope was carried away
In a ring of vapor never seen again.

Always Away

The sun goes up, the sun goes down.
Sometimes both can be one.
And in the eve of discontent,
the sun defrauds its very shine.
Behind the clouds (the shades of gray)
the borderlines all are lost and blind.
When black and white are all to see,
the sun stays always away.

left and Right

left and Right or right and Right
Give it all up into the air.
For love is all that's left as the world burns.
Put out the fire with tears of sympathy
Burning their homes as we build up our own
Is that the way life's meant to be?
Can it be so that they are just jealous
That's what we say (rote recitation)
Cuz we have it all. We are the world.
We are the best.
We are the best.
How can it be when they hate us and our response is to kill them all?
Don't get me wrong, but what we've come in is societal rape.
Take it all and leave them behind.
Bodies broken, black and blue.
Blood stained on the sand.
because - oh yes...
I'm a little progressive, left and Right.
Here is my ego, here is my open-mind.
When they argue their side, I'll bullshit my way out
All I know is no one's Right.

A Memory
hugging my knees in the corner of my bed
after locking all three doors and killing the lights
(and the pain with the pills)
i left you to save you from me
then you locked me out when hope was born
and all was lost in my descent
i couldn't hear your tears through he door
could you hear me beg through your tears?
but it's not you i can't stand, the damage was his
he was the liar, i just thought you'd see through it
(or at least her) but too little too late.
And he fooled us all (at least me for a while)
But when he took to the stairs and called me a prick
I started to see the problem wasn't me.
It was him and his impossibilities
Because for once I wasn't an ass
And he wasn't all that he said
Cuz I knew he was a ghost in his pale white skin
And his suave facade designed to hide
The weaknesses that lie beneath.

An Epiphany
So much for who I thought I knew
I should have heard the sirens coming
I should've seen it in your face
and known it was a lie.
I guess some things are too much to ask for
and better left unsaid
But I never asked for a thing from you
I just believed the promises you made.
why should i have believed those words?
why didn't I know i'd feel this pain?
and either you forgot those words you swore
or you never meant them in the first place.
and over the static of the phoneline
you said you didn't but now i see you did
and all those words were just another lie.
And when you breathed "i miss you"
that was was your biggest one
cuz you couldn't wait to get me out of your life
and your lipstick laced deceit
and your face a painted lie
are as real as your shady heart
So if i'm strong i'll give it up
but i doubt that can ever be
perhaps you'll even come around
and see the things i hope you'd see
so they can say whatever they want to
cuz i know they know nothing of us
And they know even less about me.
What shocks me is they don't really know you
You can call me a bitch or say I'm full of shit.
No matter, no worries.
You're the one who can't be true.

The Ghost
The view from the overpass is laced with streaks of red and white;
All unaware of the ghost that sits on the edge floating above.
The one that had the hope, and the one who's full of spite.
The ghost without a soul because it couldn't love
And now it feels like now i can't have what I want,
but that's just cuz i'm wanting you
The sun won't shine over this highway tomb for all its pride
What sun that's set on tomorrow can rise again today?
The fire within the soul burnt so bright and strong that it died
It shone itself to ash and will never again fight the dark away