A Farewell to Amor

train tracks to rise above and move against
and fight to break the mold
you weren't even that deserving
you're not even the cure
and you wonder why you even bother getting up in the morning
if you only could be here right now
looking up towards the glowing satellite
these walls of turmoil
these halls of white
and being stuck in a losing streak
where all you can do is grit your teeth
and pretend to smile
so you say you want to close the book with me
all you have to do is shut my cover
because you gave up ages ago
to be honest
i did the best i could to cover your hurt
but you wanted the melodrama
and you wanted the spotlight
but you were never a god to me
even though half of the world thought you were (at least in your eyes)
but what you didn't see is what you were honestly missing
the better parts of me
the parts that made everything right
so yeah, correct
we ended without a blow
but that doesn't really make a difference
because i know better than to fight
when we'll be gone for good in a week
and i wish you luck
but next time we meet
hopefully you will have grown up and seen
the rest me that you never saw
or maybe you hope we never meet
so you can just stop caring about me
because to be honest, my priorities are in order
and its hard to pencil you in
when you keep disappearing
and we're friends and then we're enemies every two weeks
but good luck, you're right
maybe its best to end it here
because at least we can both sleep at night
knowing we've said the things we didn't want to hear
or that in our minds we both "won the fight"
how childish of us
that we could never see
that both of us were infantile
and that we were never meant to be.
hopefully.
i will grow up too, and learn to get over the worst parts of you.